Thursday, 7 November 2013

Inspiration and Motivation

Hey everyone!
Ok so umm really I should be writing about everything that has happened in the last two days but.............. I can't remember anything and I'm tired so you'll have to just live with me leaving some stuff out of this :P

So to start with I thought I'd tell you quickly about my confusing and irritating visit to the Foreigner's Registration Office in Kolkata. If you're staying in India for more than 6 months you have to register. Since I'm planning to stay for 7 I went to do just this, but after having spent ages getting all the paperwork together, I was told that because I was only in Kolkata for 5 months I didn't need to register here and if I extended my visa for Lucknow then the part of my stay over 6 months would be there and I'd have to register at the nearest office there, which would be Delhi. After leaving the office I then remembered that I have to apply for a visa extension 3 months in advance. So now I'll have to go back in 2 months to extend the visa and then I'll see what they say about registering then. Welcome to India!

Now let's talk about this inspiration and motivation. I didn't dance yesterday because I wasn't feeling well. If I'm honest I'm pretty sure half of it was imagined and I'm pretty sure I played it up so I could take a break from training. I was so frustrated that I was letting myself do it and I was extremely disappointed with myself. I still think that not dancing was the most sensible idea because if something had been up then making it worse would have been stupid and I really did just need a break. Missing class made me determined to dance today. I went to bed absolutely resolute in dancing the next day and alas I did. Two things happened in class today. Firstly there were loads of other girls there for their class, most of them have been learning for years. Doing class in front of one or two of them is normally intimidating enough, but a whole class of them! But something had changed in my mind this morning, no doubt because of how angry I was with myself from yesterday. So I thought to myself, yes these girls are more experienced, yes I might make a fool of myself but I came here to study Bharatanatyam because I love it, I came here for myself, not for anyone else. So I worked my utmost hardest and at some points the others joined in and at other points they stood and watched but I just got on with it because that is what I came for. I actually found that when they saw I was trying they were quite encouraging.

The second thing that was different in today's class was that my energy levels seemed to be slightly higher, I wasn't thinking about when I could next take a sip of water, or when I could take a break. I was just thinking about getting the move right. By not focusing on what my body could or couldn't do and just pushing myself to do what I was being shown I actually enjoyed class, I finally got to enjoy Bharatanatyam for the dance and not struggle out of breath, not to say I wasn't out of breath! I just wasn't thinking about it :P

So all in all today was really great. Aunty also insisted on taking me to a doctor, and I've got another two sets of tablets and two bottles of cough syrup. Yay!

Watching classes here is really the biggest inspiration, I love watching other students dance, especially more experienced dancers than myself, which is most of them! I become so lost in what I'm watching, it's so beautiful and it pushes me to work harder so that I can become as good as some of them one day.

So tomorrow I have class again and I'm actually looking forward to it, alas sleep calls, so until next time!



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